星期三, 十一月 14, 2007
2:42 上午
I hope she isnt gonna do it.
Seriously,this is just like what happened to my friend
Except i dont think she had to muilti-task like im doing now
(observing tt lady in the block opposite mine,typing and getting my fringe away from my face while tt stupid fan just keeps blowing relentlessly:(....) At least i know what me and my friend have in common, i used to wonder so often-and no, im not a sucker for fate.
oh wait,it really is happening.
I CANT BE WITNESSING SOMEONE COMMITING SUICIDE !!!!!!!
stupid me,the signs are too telling,i mean,warning bells should have been ringing in my head when I saw this lady in red.
Now she's walking towards this windows which has NO GRILLS.
uh...but she;s taking this loooong drag from her cigarrette-do smokers like to smoke just before they die,or is this something to do with their addiction,like they don wanna forget how smoking feels like when they are in heaven or wateva?
wait,in hell-cos you cant possibly go to heaven if you commit suicide.
okok i doso get what my friend must be feeling when she witnessed the last moments of some random person in the block opposite hers,before he commited suicide.
Just to let you know,HE LOOKED AT HER IN THE EYE BEFORE HE JUMPED OFF THE BUILDING.
is this freaky or what?...
oh...wait,she's drinking something and
GOING AWAY FROM THE WINDOW?!?!
uh...GOOD.:)
uh.......i thought wrong after all..seems like i worry too much,-and no, im not paranoid.
星期日, 十一月 11, 2007
1:58 上午
8am.
That was the latest i woke up during this hols. Yeah right , AND on a Sunday morning.
You cant expect any earlier than this.
okok, i wont go around moaning till this post gets too dreary to read.
and then i went to church with my head halfstuck in dreamland
except tt we were earlier than expected,
and me and sis ended up watching the traffic while my parents went up to service.
Ironically though,i felt quite relaxed then and there watching the traffic,and being able to internally sleep with my eyes open...haha tt says a lot doesnt it.:)
Till there was this weirdo who seemed like tt typical stalker(i wasnt stereotyping) who preys on um,...innocent girls,...and yeah, there he was trying to sit near us and eyeing us...
and suddenly i had enough of weird encounters.
I decided to refill tt cup of punch in my hand,instead of crushing it and scaring tt weirdo like i felt like doing
Mild response haha,
but i wouldnt wanna get punch all over myself,especially if it was PINK:)
星期五, 十一月 02, 2007
6:58 上午
Suffocated.I seem to have fallen irrevocably into...
1) this cycle of negative thoughts tt keeps surfacing through my mind
How it seems like everything you slog so hard for signifies nothing,really.
Just like tt ice cream you like so much which you find a few moments later,a decreasing puddle of water.
2) this weird habit of talking my thoughts out loud,and finding how embarrassing the consequences are
3)this someone...who apparantly has been 'controlling' my life.Now it seems im turning into a clone i myself dont seem to recognise.I mean.. the same books read? tt favourite singer?..
sadly i dont exist in tt someone's life.
which mean to say it could end up being fervently in vain.
THAT IS A SCARY,FREAKY FACT IF YOU'D JUST THINK OF IT.
6:14 上午
Passive like a sponge!
'As quoted from Mrs Chaiw.Cute analogy.:)
Its surprising you know,how you actually discover tt humour and personality in your teacher that you never really take notice of it before.
And that their minds may be teeming with occasional quaints and fancies, just like Dill from TKAMB,except not that extreme.
Really,just like you and me.
which just goes to show how things actually seem much better when you don't have an expectation...or when you brace for yourself for the worse.
Except tt doesnt really apply for a situation when you are stuck in THE mind-freezingly cold room,which was what happened during chemistry.
And the words just flew past me.Literally.
I was frantically trying to make sense of them,which you find is really a hard thing to do since at tt point in time,the only thoughts in your mind is how to get out of tt place.
Except the pple outside woudnt really fancy seeing someone with frostbite.
