星期六, 十二月 22, 2007
9:58 下午
haha..
ya and that would be right,i just realised that my dates are all in chinese
which is a depressing thing since half the time i dont realli fancy figuring out what i wrote and when.
MEMORY SPOILER.
gonna ask BJ how to undo tt part.
and besides abt the dead tagboard thingy.
i realised it might actually be a good thing after all since if nobody comes here-then nobody really gets to see what i write(which is actually the main point of a DIARY)
and i realised i have loads of things to say esp since the last blog entry.
AND no,im not being emo.
HAHA.
fine,junior camp was fun enough,except i only came in on the second day cos i had fever and it kinda sucked to find out how you are the only person who's foreign to everyone and everything else.um...and ya,it was pretty much my aunt's fault..not to be mean or anything.shan't elaborate.:)
ok and i realised some things during the camp, and i have been feeling emo ever since,trying to stop thinking about (something) and how it all should have been if only i had done something.
haha.tt wasnt supposed to make sense to u if you are reading this post.
wild enough I NEED TIME TO SHAKE OFF TT THOUGHT.:)
星期三, 十一月 14, 2007
2:42 上午
I hope she isnt gonna do it.
Seriously,this is just like what happened to my friend
Except i dont think she had to muilti-task like im doing now
(observing tt lady in the block opposite mine,typing and getting my fringe away from my face while tt stupid fan just keeps blowing relentlessly:(....) At least i know what me and my friend have in common, i used to wonder so often-and no, im not a sucker for fate.
oh wait,it really is happening.
I CANT BE WITNESSING SOMEONE COMMITING SUICIDE !!!!!!!
stupid me,the signs are too telling,i mean,warning bells should have been ringing in my head when I saw this lady in red.
Now she's walking towards this windows which has NO GRILLS.
uh...but she;s taking this loooong drag from her cigarrette-do smokers like to smoke just before they die,or is this something to do with their addiction,like they don wanna forget how smoking feels like when they are in heaven or wateva?
wait,in hell-cos you cant possibly go to heaven if you commit suicide.
okok i doso get what my friend must be feeling when she witnessed the last moments of some random person in the block opposite hers,before he commited suicide.
Just to let you know,HE LOOKED AT HER IN THE EYE BEFORE HE JUMPED OFF THE BUILDING.
is this freaky or what?...
oh...wait,she's drinking something and
GOING AWAY FROM THE WINDOW?!?!
uh...GOOD.:)
uh.......i thought wrong after all..seems like i worry too much,-and no, im not paranoid.
星期日, 十一月 11, 2007
1:58 上午
8am.
That was the latest i woke up during this hols. Yeah right , AND on a Sunday morning.
You cant expect any earlier than this.
okok, i wont go around moaning till this post gets too dreary to read.
and then i went to church with my head halfstuck in dreamland
except tt we were earlier than expected,
and me and sis ended up watching the traffic while my parents went up to service.
Ironically though,i felt quite relaxed then and there watching the traffic,and being able to internally sleep with my eyes open...haha tt says a lot doesnt it.:)
Till there was this weirdo who seemed like tt typical stalker(i wasnt stereotyping) who preys on um,...innocent girls,...and yeah, there he was trying to sit near us and eyeing us...
and suddenly i had enough of weird encounters.
I decided to refill tt cup of punch in my hand,instead of crushing it and scaring tt weirdo like i felt like doing
Mild response haha,
but i wouldnt wanna get punch all over myself,especially if it was PINK:)
星期五, 十一月 02, 2007
6:58 上午
Suffocated.I seem to have fallen irrevocably into...
1) this cycle of negative thoughts tt keeps surfacing through my mind
How it seems like everything you slog so hard for signifies nothing,really.
Just like tt ice cream you like so much which you find a few moments later,a decreasing puddle of water.
2) this weird habit of talking my thoughts out loud,and finding how embarrassing the consequences are
3)this someone...who apparantly has been 'controlling' my life.Now it seems im turning into a clone i myself dont seem to recognise.I mean.. the same books read? tt favourite singer?..
sadly i dont exist in tt someone's life.
which mean to say it could end up being fervently in vain.
THAT IS A SCARY,FREAKY FACT IF YOU'D JUST THINK OF IT.
6:14 上午
Passive like a sponge!
'As quoted from Mrs Chaiw.Cute analogy.:)
Its surprising you know,how you actually discover tt humour and personality in your teacher that you never really take notice of it before.
And that their minds may be teeming with occasional quaints and fancies, just like Dill from TKAMB,except not that extreme.
Really,just like you and me.
which just goes to show how things actually seem much better when you don't have an expectation...or when you brace for yourself for the worse.
Except tt doesnt really apply for a situation when you are stuck in THE mind-freezingly cold room,which was what happened during chemistry.
And the words just flew past me.Literally.
I was frantically trying to make sense of them,which you find is really a hard thing to do since at tt point in time,the only thoughts in your mind is how to get out of tt place.
Except the pple outside woudnt really fancy seeing someone with frostbite.
星期三, 十月 31, 2007
6:53 上午
aha.
so clearly shown in the first hand example...
which will be.uh........
myself...
haha,see what the evils of procrastinating are?
tsktsk..
apparently it drives you off your motivation mode
which totally defeats what they say about change being the only constant.
Even I sound like an incoherent fool
and it's only about THIS SHORT BREAK I WAS TAKING AWAY FROM THE COM TO STUDY.
see what procrastinating does,it makes one ramble about insignificant stuff watsoever..
haha...okok i shall chose to adhere to the principle of
BEING CALM AT ALL TIMES AND SEE WHERE IT LEADS YOU.
hahaha........
NOT.
cos being calm, realli doesnt lead you anywhere
only make you appear emotionless and humanless.
i mean,
why say: im relieving myself off that bit of time and ordeal of the mind to relax my senses and release that tormented soul within before i go demented from all that incessant gain of knowledge ...
when you can just say: look there,im tired,im stressed,i need a
break NOW.
get the point?
星期五, 八月 10, 2007
11:05 下午
The four of us!
Nicole,Liwenn,me,Xu Qi
(after performance)
yehyehyeh!!!!!!!
national day celebration was a blast!!!!
even though our performance kinda sucked wat with us being outta breath from straining to loudly due since we always sounded soft in the hall...
everything kinda went ok in the end and the whole sch was practically high during the community singing...and the off-the-lights effect was realli cool too...
Even the guests and parents were a bit shocked by us being so high...
just look at their faces:)
10:59 下午
argh!!!!!!!!!!
I still miss church!!!!!!
though i have decided to stop feeling so overly depressed..
cos it's just another 3 more stupid days!!!!!!!
and im real scared cos things happen when u least expect it..
i mean-notice how many ppl are in shock EVERYDAY?
go figure-it must be that they are caught unaware..
Notice im wearing pink in both pics?..
haha....that is so not me..
PINK is NOT my fav color!!:)
10:34 下午
yeh!!!!!!!!
i have time for u again blog!!!!
so dun fret!;)
this wk's a little sad and all
wat with all those weird happenings and nice things passing so quickly-they always do...
and it's like when things are starting to get better...
u always feel depressed for NO RHYME AND REASON :(
and mood swings totally cant be controlled..
wat a sad life..
and i cant go church !!
bcos of some impt event...
like how at every point of ur life ,there's a limelight ,then after it ends..
it realli becomes so insignificant in comparison to ur daily life..
anw...
haha at least i got some R&R..
cos dad's friend had this bbq which was un-had in a loooong time
haha and the fun's in seeing how everyone turned out...esp how the all of us kids turned out..
and then i felt so weird ...like how we could all play and talk then and now there's only...SILENCE...
星期四, 七月 19, 2007
2:36 上午
'Everything is a habit until you stop and think about it'
haha quite true la.
seeing as how you realli never stop to think about life
and all its small minute happenings then
you realise they are there
and nothing is really the same
because you become to affected by the way you do that thing thereafter
but wateva...
im high-ing away
cause its like less than 24 hours to the
FIRST TIME IM WEARING SARI!;)
which is realli a cause to sing to:D
uhh.......sing any song;)
